Finding Jesus in a Folder

I have had a box of my sister's crap in a back closet for a while, and when I moved into my new apartment it just went into the back of a different closet.   I had tried to go through it before, but I ended up just being an emotional non-functioning mess.

One of my biggest emotional dilemmas has been whether my sister knew Jesus or not, and to be honest I had no idea.  I started my transition into Christianity about 3 months before my sister died, needless to say no evangelizing or religious conversations happened during that time, and I had no idea about her beliefs.

With the holidays around the corner which includes Sara's birthday (December 23) and 3 years since she died (Jan 3) I decided maybe it was time to try and piece together the things I didn't know, so  I pulled out some of the stuff that was at the very top of the box and tossed them on the floor. It was mostly papers, and letters, and old drawings...Anyhow when I had tossed the pile of letters and papers on the floor to go through them 2 pages that had been ripped out of a book fell out of a folder.  So I picked up the 2 pages (which I must add they had that musty book smell...and i love that smell) On the 2 pages was a  365 day Bible reading plan, and then 3 bible versus that layout the invitation that Jesus extends to follow him.  I then picked up the folder and dug further.  I found a summary of all 4 of the Gospels laid out in the Bible, with a small fact sheet on each gospel writer.  I also found a piece of paper that had "The Case For Christ" by Lee Strobel written on it, as if someone had mentioned it to her and she made a note of it.

I don't know what this means, but it gives me hope. It gives me hope that Sara had come to God and accepted his gift of salvation.  It gives me hope of seeing my older sister again, and getting to know her as a sister in Christ.

I'm unsure where this leaves me in my path to dealing with the loss of my sister.  Three years later I can say that I haven't dealt with a lot of the feelings I probably should deal with.

I found Him in a folder tonight and I just hope and pray she found Him in her heart before her passing.