10 Things I needed to hear...

I don't usually do this, but here is my second blog in one day.  I think writing things out helps me process them, and as a by-product you get to read my processing.

I met with Genesis for Starbucks tonight, and two hours later I still feel pretty butt-kicked.  For those of you who don't know our relationship...She has butt-kicked me several times, and always out of love, and so it's rather acceptable, and usually deserved. Today I learned that once again her job as my mentor is NOT to tell me things I want to hear, but rather to tell me what I need to hear.

10 Things I needed to hear tonight (but most likely didn't want too)

1)  I best be praying for discernment and obedience, because I need it.  (So true...)
2)  Asking God for something, and Him saying "Yes, but not right now," may also be code for "This is a time of preparation, so you best be using it."  (Totally...)
3) Once number two is realized, I actually have to use this time of preparation to get the ball rolling (dang and I thought I had this list down so far)...God will not "poof" you things like a passport...you have to actually go apply for it.  (I really would rather Him "poof" me things, Genesis seems to think this is unrealistic...I'm still insisting I am right on this one, she will tell you otherwise.)
4)  Patience. (Oh goodness, how much I hate that word...)
5) If you ask God for big red flashing signs, and he sends you five of them and you don't catch on...He is going to send you a sixth one in the form of a person who will tell you about the five you have missed previously.  (Crap, she was right, those were big flashing red signs, and sometimes I make fun of Jesus' Disciples for not getting the whole bread and fish thing the first time.  I now know I have no room to talk...)
6) I have more knowledge than I let myself believe, and I'm further along than I think, I still have a long path ahead.  (I have come a long way...there is still a lonnnnng way to go)
7) At some point faith MUST play a part in this adventure, and I'm not letting it, which means I'm not trusting God, which means I need to start, and ASAP.  (Anyone want to guess how much this kicked my butt?)
8) Learn to praise God in and for all things.  (I'm good at this when things are good, I'm also good at this when I realize something in hindsight, I am NOT good at this in the moment of me NOT getting what I want, when I want it.)
9) The list of spiritual gifts is long, I now know quite a few of them that I do not have, so maybe I need to focus on what I do have, and then use them.  (Vision is not my gift without a doubt)
10) Discernment and Obedience.  (It gets two spots cause I didn't like just 9, and this one seems important)


Butt-Kicked.

Temper-tantrum thrown.

Efforts to work on at least some of this starts... soon-ish... (says Lauren the Procrastinator)

Kelsey: You can sit here and pout about being wrong for a while and then go do all of this, or you can just go do all of this and speed things up.  Either way you will in fact go do all of this.
Me: You're right. Totally pouting first though.

"You can never cross the ocean unless you have the courage to lose sight of the shore."

"When you come to the edge of all light you know, and are about to step off into the darkness of the unknown, Faith is knowing one of two things will happen: there will be something solid to stand on, or you will be taught to fly."