I don't know if anyone has ever really looked around, and I mean really looked. The divorce rate in the country is over FIFTY PERCENT. That means over half of all marriages end in divorce. Statistically, that is heart breaking. I am a product of divorce, and I don't know if that's what drives my desire for marriage that lasts or feeds my cynicism that says I'm better off just never getting married, never falling in love, and letting go of the dreams that the five year old princess version of me thought up. I really looked around this weekend, and I have very few references for successful marriages that I have witnessed.
This week I found myself asking if true love even really exist. Can I just say that. that thought crushed my soul? I think I spent most of this weekend wishing I'd never even watched a Disney movie, and as a lover of Disney movies that breaks my heart. While cynicism and naivete battled it out in my heart, God made this clear...
First, God is love. Knowing that, and believing in God reassures my heart that love must exist, because I know God exist.
Second, My happily ever after was established long ago. God called me His child, and then He sent his son, Jesus Christ to die for me. That sacrifice in itself is an expression of the purest form of love. My happily ever after isn't in this life, it's in the next one. The five year old version of me, desperately wants to believe in Disney movies. The child that God called His, knows that "Happily Ever After" is promised to me in eternity.
Third, The only man I'm currently interested in chasing is Jesus. God has placed a call on my life to go to Uganda, and spread His love. In thinking about that my heart fills with joy. I found myself doubting love, and God reminded me that He has called me to do just that, love.
Fourth, God has shown me love not only through the sacrifice of Jesus, but through the people He has placed in my life. The desire of my heart is to pass the love I have been given through my christian community on to other people.
More than anything God has called us to love on this earth, and love exists in so many more ways than the Disney movies would have you believe. Don't get me wrong I still love my Disney movies, and I still want to believe in Prince Charming, but it's not my fairy tale ending.
Naivete and cynicism still play their part, and their still both at odds inside of me when it comes to love and marriage. I can only hope that somewhere on that scale a real-life love can be found, and a marriage can settle and be successful in that.
Regardless of what happens, My fairy tale ending comes in the next life when I am spending every moment worshipping a God that is perfect and loving, and the best prince charming I could ask for already died to save me, and in that reconciled me with a perfect God that I long to know more intimately.
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