God Laughed at Me.

For the past,  I don't know, two weeks I have done a whole lot of whining to God about all of the reasons He wasn't actually sending me to Africa. I was discouraged, and upset, and slightly angry. God had laid something on my heart, and then I told Him all of the reasons He was wrong.

Let me tell you this....God isn't wrong...ever.

So tonight Book Club happened and my attitude was awful. Africa wasn't happening, my dreams were dashed, and this kid hadn't even sent in the application, I had just decided game over.  No one really said anything about my lame attitude (although really ladies...next time hit me... lol j/k sort of...) So I got home doing what I do best (reeling in my own self pity, and throwing parties) when God kicked me in the face.

I was just about to sit down and write a blog about how nothing was happening, and this was too hard and the towel was being thrown in, and then God laughed at me. HE LAUGHED AT ME (yes, shouty caps were necessary for this)

The perfect God that spoke the world into motion, gave Sarah and Abraham a son at the age of 90 something,  helped Noah build the ark, Moses part the Red Sea, and sent His Son to die for all of the worlds sin in order to save His children that were fallen and sinful also laid Africa on my heart, and I (the girl who has ADD, hasn't even gotten a college degree yet, and puts the "fun" in dysfunctional) told Him that He couldn't possibly send me to Africa cause it was going to cost too many dollars.

Yes. He laughed at me.  He didn't need the lovely ladies from book club to hit me, because He was going to give me the wake up call Himself.

Okay so the good news:

MY APPLICATION IS FINISHED AND SENT! (So many shouty caps in one blog...sorry)

Do I still have worries and anxieties? Oh yes. But let's be real here...one step at a time. So I am one step  closer than I was yesterday, and as this weekend approaches and I head home to go get my birth certificate to send off for my passport I will be one more step closer.

This is happening. God has a plan, and I can't wait to watch it unfold.

God, I am still all in.